DIA SHAN

Rain.

2008-03-01T20:45:00.000-08:00

Rain.
Rain.

It beats upon my window sill.

Pounding.
Pounding.

Like the beating of a drill.
Like the beating of drums.

Drumming.
Drumming.

Like the beating of war drums.

Falling, falling.
Dancing, dancing.

They drop and fall and shatter.

Shatter.
Shatter.

Break on the ground,
And make the earth so better.

-Hero

Mjolnir...I have no clue what that means

2008-03-01T20:41:00.000-08:00

Thunder from the heavens,
Drums that beat and rumble,
He striketh down the mighty,
Leaving safe the humble.

He swings his hammer mjolnir,
He makes the earth to rumble.

He forges, on he forges,
Lightning’s for the sky,
Mjolnir pounds and strikes,
For his master up on high.

He grinds, he beats, he releases,
His deluge from the sky.

Fire, ice, and power,
Strike the earth below,
Rivers of light descending,
They scream and screech and bellow.

Thundering to the ground,
With their heated raging glow.

Forging always forging,
In heavens glorious forge,
Mjolnir clanging, always clanging,
With an undying courage.

With lightening and thunder strong,
Until the final age.

-Hero

By Elena Vitali

2008-02-27T20:42:00.000-08:00

I wish i knew how to say this to you,
i wish i had the time.

I wish i could think about anything else.
I wish this would all be fine.

But i know theres not much that a girl like me can do that would help this out.

You have to understand hat theres so much more to life than just you and yourself,
see there some body else, If you'll just take the time.

I know that nobodies perfect but it never hurts to try start,
take a a stand take, somebodies hand don't let a chance pass you by.

Thoughts

2008-01-21T00:36:00.002-08:00

Words.
that should not have been said.

Notes.
that should not have been read.

things that should not have been seen.
by the eyes of me.

Tears.
that in silence were shed.

Wounds.
the heart can not mend.

Trust given
to be thrown to dust.

A hand lent
to build another's lust.

It's time to role the dice
and let fate decide.

Who are you going to believe?

your own eye's?
or me?

shadow wolf

2008-01-21T00:36:00.001-08:00

Shadow in the night
Hunter for what is right

Seeking the one who’s name
Make cold the blood of men’s veins

Lips peeled back
Teeth ready to attack

To sink through flesh and bone
And give justice to where none has been shown

Cold are the days
Warm are the nights

No rest for the wicked
everyone must die

cry to the moon
earth, fire, air all in the same tune.

Mourning for that which is lost
Pushing forward at all costs

The lust for revenge urging him so
It beats within it’s heart and soul

Morning Reflections

2007-12-25T22:38:00.000-08:00

It is winter now, and all is cold,
The dawn has broken through,
A chill, a deathly silence, holds fast and still,
In dimming shades and hues.

It is a peaceful day, a mournful day,
A day of meditations.
A day of thought, and quiet musings,
And voiceless celebrations.

Our relatives and friends abroad
Have all come for this day.
They stand before our quaint abode,
And not a word they say.

All are dressed in flamboyant attire,
And every soul caries its tone.
They shift; they stride, and wait a while,
And all keep to their own.

A wind it blows, a fearsome noise,
Like the mourning of a beast.
And the snowfall sings a merry tune,
In the midst of our great feast.

The man in black, the father, the son,
Exit, with lowered heads.
And behind these men, they carry the coffin.

The mother is, at last, dead.

Hero

I want you....FOR ELENA

2007-12-18T20:43:00.000-08:00

I want you
you and only you

I want the touch of your hand
and the softness of your lips

I want to hold you and only you
when weir lost in this abyss

Come to me
let me be you pleasure toy

Do what you want
as long as I can fill you with joy

Take my hand
let me take you away

To the garden were we lay
and make love all day

Let me whisper in your ear
and tell you how I love you.

YOU AND ONLY YOU.

weirdness

2007-12-18T20:38:00.000-08:00

crazy baby
train me maybe

school me
forget it

screw me
you got it

drill me
to the beat

of your moaning
thats so sweet

coo me
like a dove

wet me
with your love

flood me with your kisses
so I'll never want to miss it

this I know is dumb
I'm just waiting till you come

to carry me away
to our bed we made

alone
in our secret place

Sexual frustration

2007-12-18T20:27:00.000-08:00

alone in hell
hypnotised by my charmers spell

running in circles like a maze
digging holes and sleeping in caves

ignoring what I know to be true
cause it means being with you

lost and confused
a pon on a chess board

moved around
whenever you get bored

trying to forget
but with no success

the meaning to life
and it's endless mess

the memory stays to haunt me
for the rest of my days

sexual frustration
I don't know what to do

all I can think about
is how I want to be with you

thoughts racing through my head
I try but can't go to bed

my mind is fixed on you
and all the things I'd like to do

shaking my head
I don't want to acknowledge the truth

just thought you otta know
I wish I could be with you

Captured Love

2007-12-18T20:11:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry for all the pain I caused
by walking that one yard

I was so to blind to see

how many people would be dead
and how much blood shed

because of me

blood of the soul
body of the mind

searching for me the whole time

finding me with a gin on my face

not knowing
all that just took place

you were looking for me
I didn't know

you shed blood
of your body and soul

looking to capture
the love of my soul

Butterfly Kidd

2007-12-18T20:00:00.000-08:00

Spread your wings and fly
high up into the sky

land your beauty
with a kiss

take pollen
from this thistles lips

let your colors shine on me
and fill me with serenity

never let the storms
make you frown

or the nets
that try to take you down

you fly with a smile on your face
and land softly filled with grace

oh butterfly kiss
fall on me

show and teach me
what it means to be free

guide me
when I don't know where to go

show me how
to make perfume from a rose

help me to know
how to be true

by always keeping me
ever so close toy you

oh butterfly kiss
fall on me

and let me make sweet love to thee.

To Greg.

2007-12-11T20:11:00.002-08:00

you made me laugh
you made me cry

you gave me love
when no one stood by

you kept by my side
now i keep by yours

you kept me alive
you keep me fighting

like you said you would
even if you choose to leave

it was your path no mine
but i will always love

i will always care
that i swear to you.

Mary Dawn

Broken Dreams.

2007-12-11T20:11:00.001-08:00

a thoughtful cry
from one so small

begging to forget
her broken dreams

the pain of hunger
accepted by many

still forgetting
broken dreams

a wail of sorrow
from loss of child

fighting threw tears
battling broken dreams

even though a heart is broken
threw loss of one you love

keep dreams
though you have to many

broken dreams..

Mary Dawn

Go Home!

2007-12-11T20:09:00.000-08:00

sleeping and awake
dieing and alive

make up your mind
rethink your thoughts

die in the mind of trying
and laugh in the hope of dieing

live here now
run away don't come back

please don't come home

can't you see i hate you
don't you think i don't love you

live on with another life
die with my sorrow

i can't forgive
i wont relive your pain or mine

it's not yours to ask
live your life alone

i wont care, i couldn't
stay away!

take my broken heart and go

go leave,
you have what you want

now go!

Mary Dawn

Betraid....

2007-12-11T20:08:00.000-08:00

shut the fuck up

let me think
let me realise what made you break

you tore me up
then spat me out

just what you said
you wouldn't do

shove it down
cry all night

watch him die
and scream in spite

he betrayed your love
he twisted your words

give him a taste
of what he readily deserves.

Mary Dawn

Thoughts!

2007-12-11T20:06:00.000-08:00

taken aback at what i do
why do i always go astray

driven on by vendetta and anger
taken aback by sorrow and grief

tell me what it was?
am i trying to remember.

tell me what your saying
don't make me forget

i hold them i curse them
i hate them i love them

two different mindsets
two different minds

one to twist and tangle
one to unloose and untie

i can't shut up
i wont be quiet!

i wont give in
or even try it.

silence...........
and then the final death.

Mary Dawn

Questions yet again..

2007-12-11T20:05:00.000-08:00

take the time to see what i have seen
hear what i have heard

speak what i have spoken
words in this world are false

twisted broken hearted thieves
such as men in their selfish dreams

where do we get our dignity from?

can't a man see when he is lost
why must people be so easily consumed

can't life be freely take?
as a heart is freely given

why must one suffer and parish
and yet more are living and flourish.

Mary Dawn

Trajic Reality.

2007-12-11T20:04:00.000-08:00

i was lost

what words could i speak?

i could not regain sanity
or fall back to sleep

the news i heard
just broke me to pieces

never finding comfort
in what i thought best

the words themselves
were knifes in my heart

knowing the lives we live
would lead different paths.

Mary Dawn

I'm Sorry

2007-12-11T20:02:00.000-08:00

im sorry for what i did
im sorry for how you felt

i never knew the truth would hurt
or make your hopes turn to ash

im sorry my feelings couldn't exceed your hopes
i never thought my shallow heart
could make you seek mine

these thoughts trouble my mind
the life seems to fade

these feelings turn to dust
dust in the desert wind

shadows and dust they say we are
and i believe this with all my heart

but, could i be so cruel?
could i be so fake?

could this heart of mine
twist and bleed?

Mary Dawn

Empty Promise.

2007-12-11T19:58:00.000-08:00

trying to hide this pain inside

nothing seems to go right
nothing seems to be fare

why must all things go wrong
all roads just lead to disappear

you told me i'd be happy
you told me i'd be glad

but everything i am now
is way to far from that
you never let me do

what pleased me even though
i've done everything for you

what have you done for me?

i die every second
i die every day

for only a promise in life
that has faded away

nothing is real nothing is true
nothing in this life
well ever be real again.

Mary Dawn

Desperation

2007-12-08T21:17:00.001-08:00

The words just won’t come out,
My mind has gone blank.

I have to tell you how I feel,
Or loose you forever to another.

Come on, heart, and tell my brain what I feel,
I can’t say it.

My own desperation is suffocating me,
I’m loosing him and he can’t see.

My eyes are crying without tears,
Voice pleading without words.

Look at me.

Don’t tell me you can’t see,
Don’t tell me you can’t hear,
Every beat of my aching heart.

Look closer.

I’m right here,
Baring my soul to someone blind.

This deafness sets in,
When my heart speaks so clearly.

I’m trying to say,
I love you.

Just Listen

- Mush

Russian Roulette

2007-12-08T21:16:00.002-08:00

You are nothing but a faded memory,
But a memory that haunts me in my dreams.

And wouldn’t disappear.

The nights are nearly erased,
Not I can still see your face.

So many years ago.

But it seems that I still know,
How close we were before.

But can you even recognize me anymore?

Tonight is my last night,
I’ve given up the fight.

So feel my heart beating,
It’s beating for you.

I couldn’t stop you leaving,
And now there’s nothing left to do…

….but this

-MUSH

End,my sweet, end

2007-12-08T21:16:00.001-08:00

When does it all end?
Death?
Of the body or the heart?
Because the pain keeps throbbing,
As though I’ve just taken the hit.
And the lacerations still weep crimson tears,
Fresh as ever.
Though I’ve been wounded,
for a lifetime already,
Because of you,
And your betrayal of my trusting heart.
And the promise you made to it.
You, my executioner,
hold the dagger still.
A macabre prize,
That tore – is tearing – my unsuspecting heart,
That dripped – drips- bloody love.
You killed me,
Killed me from the inside out.
And somehow you are still killing me,
Even from your grave

Mush

Familiar Twist

2007-12-08T21:14:00.000-08:00

Drifting,
In and out of reality.
In between lines of dreams,
And consciousness.
Floating endlessly,
Into nothing.
A blur of all that,
Seemed real or not.
Torn between the two,
Living and dreaming.
Not knowing where to stay,
Or to dive into both.
Floating on forces unseen,
And uncontrollable.
Teetering on the line,
Between life and death.

Sorrow,
calls out to those who wait..

Patience,
Waits for those to come,
Standing there.
For people to listen,
To talk to,
To be with you.
But it doesn’t happen,
You site and wait all alone.
Wondering when it’ll be your turn,
But no one will notice.
They are to occupied to notice,
They too are waiting.
Wondering when it will be their turn,
And if all of us keep waiting.
Only sorrow will fill the earth

-Mush

Brake out

2007-12-08T21:13:00.000-08:00

Swing through the air as you open the sails,
To the boat that will take us away.

We dance to the tune so perfect and smooth,
The roman Gothic way.

With out a fear we toss knives in the air,
Careless of where they fall.

Cause the mean of this dance
is buried deep in our hearts.

We dance and dance naked all year long,
Regardless of the weather.

The brake out of the world of prison,
We found to be oh so clever.

I reach for your hand but fined you gone,
Like a memory or the past.

But the suns worm golden glow tells me,
It wont be for long, this dream will come to pass.

Deaths of the sea

2007-12-08T21:12:00.000-08:00

She thought she could conceal
Her existence being real
and behind pen and melody
Creep into transparency.

That somehow in this room
She'd build herself a tomb
And in the dirt plant a rose
One which will never grow.

In a box was her will
to pour into until
All her breath ran dry
and she'd promised not to cry.

Above water she fought to survive
Yet now is barely alive
Drowning yet not saying a word
She sunk to the bottom unheard.

A sad ending to this story-
I'll let you think it through
Could this dying girl
Be someone next to you?

Could they be treading water
Thinking that you didn't care?
and in the dark oblivion-
Were you ever there?

Terri Koltes

The Escapists

2007-12-07T18:57:00.000-08:00

What I live in is a fantasy
Just a place for you and me
Far away in the wood
Just a place for you and me.

Barely lit by the sun
A plaintiff of green
A secret 'neath the hedge
This randevouz unseen.

We'll run 'tween the trees
And rest in the shades
We'll kiss endlessly
Where the waterfall cascades.

At night we'll build a bonfire
And sing and chant and dance
Time just doesn't exist
In our ecstatic romance.

When the morning dawns
And the smoke has died
I turn to smile at you
Sleeping by my side.

But all I see is my old bed
And reality descends
Yet in my mind i hear you say-Let's run away again.

Terri Koltes

Styx

2007-12-07T00:43:00.000-08:00

Onward to the river now
The boatman, there, awaits.
Tarry not a moment now,
And hurry now in haste.
Past the lights, beyond the ghouls,
Beyond the dreaded wastes,
And forward to the rivers edge,
For the ferryman awaits.

The toll is set, two mites apiece,
Perhaps a little more,
And leave the boatman in his peace,
And hurry to the shore.
To the lands beyond the tides
To lands of ancient lore,
With the ferryman, across the tide,
Beyond the mists of yore

The sirens sing the lulling songs,
In a glorious choirs mimic,
As the passing ones are ushered forth,
The torn, the dying, the sick.
They greet them all with pomp and fair,
And morbidly fashioned antics,
And over all the Cerberus stands,
Over the river Styx.

-HERO

blind

2007-12-06T17:51:00.000-08:00

What the fuck,
What do you mean you can’t see me?

I’m only standing in front of you,
And the whole world.

Why must you be so blind?

You’re letting those demons,
Crawl on you and hide the truth.

What is the truth?

The truth is I love you,
But you’re pretending like you can’t see it.

Open your eyes and look at me,
I’m right here in front of you.

You’re not blind and we both know it,
You just have to look and believe in what you see.

Yes it’s me.

I’m here in front of you,
Bearing me heart to you.

Just open you eyes and see.

That the only thing I want,
Is there to be a you and Me.

frozen tears

2007-12-06T17:47:00.000-08:00

They freeze one my cheek,
Even though I feel so hot.

All those tears,
That are now lost.

They fall and shatter,
On the ground around me.

As if like tears of glass,
That are perfectly clear.

They smash and shatter.

Sending pieces of razor sharp tears,
In ever direction.

Burning as they sink deep in the flesh
of any poor soul they happen to meet.

Like a knife it sinks,
Like fire it burns.

All those frozen tears,
That never say words.

They have no story they have no tale,
They just fall and shatter where ever they will.

Frozen tears that give only pain,
Frozen tears that bear my name.

Frozen tears that will never go away,
Frozen tears.

see you again

2007-12-06T17:43:00.000-08:00

The laughter ha died,
And silence does abide.

The night has closed in,
And all shut their weary eye lids.

Darkness has no hold,
Hunger had no pain.

the thought of you keeps driving me insane,
Till I see you again.

Fear has no hitch,
Pain has no sting.

I keep your name on my lips,
Till mornings first light and when I see you again.

stolen heart

2007-12-06T17:40:00.000-08:00

You stole my heart,
And ran away.

Leaving me with only the memory,
Of what we were yesterday.

I’m broken,
Cause I’m opened.

I’m broken,
Cause I’m lonesome.

And I don’t feel right,
When you’re gone away.

You’ve run away with me heart,
And you expect me to stay.

There’s nowhere you can hide,
That I won’t find.

You stole my heart,
And ran away.

Just so you could,
Keep some of me.

But why take some,
When you could have all?

I can’t live without my heart,
And I can’t live without you the thief of my heart.

I want to heal, I want to feel
Like a was and am something real.

But I can’t without my heart.

You’re bound to me,
Now that you hold a piece of me.

Why do you run, why do you hide?

You’ll never be satisfied
Till your back by my side.

I want to feel,
Like I’m somewhere I belong.

And the only place I can think of.

Is with my heart and you.

Why did you run of?
You’ve stolen my heart.

friends

2007-12-06T17:38:00.000-08:00

People who will always be there,
And some who really care.

Friends that offer a helping hand,
To pick you up and make you feel glad.

Friends, that no matter what you do,
Will always be there to stand beside you.

A friend isn’t a good thing,
To loose, misuse, or abuse.

Cause one day you’ll wish,
You had one to be with you.

closing

2007-12-06T17:37:00.000-08:00

Their trying to close,
My eye lids are fighting to close.

I’m not tired.

Yeah right I’m not,
I haven’t slept well since I got back.

My mind is racing thinking of you,
And my eyes are closing cause they want to be with you.

Their fighting to close,
The weight is getting heavier.

Their fighting to close,
I don’t think I can take it.

Their closing…ever so slowly.

Their closing, I don’t think I can make it,
Their closing and sleep is overtaking.

Their closing….
Closing

da house

2007-12-06T17:36:00.000-08:00

Worn and torn,
Wounded and dead.

They poor and needy,
Seeking bread.

But find none cause there is none, to be found.

Vanity builds,
Hate crumbles.

The hopes of many left in a bundle.

Da house was strong,
But know is weak.

Trash and rodents,
Running at your feet.

Leaks were leads shouldn’t be.

Water so vile,
It looks and smells like pee.

Dead left on the floor,
Even at the very door.

I’m in hell.
I swear I am.

The only question I have,
How can I leave the green door,

To get out of,
Da house.

Sunflower. for my friend Lisa

2007-12-06T17:34:00.000-08:00

Keep looking to the light,
And shine so bright.

Receive the love from the one above,
Let it show with your face of gold.

Sway with the wind but never give in,
To the driving urge to bend.

Stand up straight with no disgrace,
And let your beauty show with words untold.

I know what you hold,
In that chest hidden within you a love so strong it overwhelms you.

Let the sun shine on you,
And run right through.

Stand strong when all seems to,
Crumble around you.

You’re my sunflower of light,
With you everything looks bright.

So shine in the day, and shine at night,
Shine your light when all else seems black.

You brighten my life,
When you were the only thing that lacked.

So shine your life my sunflower of light,
Shine you light.

your will

2007-12-06T17:32:00.000-08:00

Here I stand I can do no other.

My face my be bloody,
But I still won’t run for cover.

This is my war,
And I have ever intention to fight it.

Rain won’t scare me,
Fire won’t burn me.

And with be by my side,
Nothing will stop me.

The march is on,
Let us rally in the marching line.

Of soldiers with no fear in their hearts,
For they know they could never die.

The bugle had been sounded,
And the shout are being shouted.

The enemy screams and falls,
To his knees.

What a stupid thing.

Here I am, I am yours,
Tell me what you will.

I’m ready for service,
Humble or great.

Heck.

I’m ready to do your will.

letters

2007-12-06T17:31:00.000-08:00

Man’s eyes
Looming over the letters on the golden pages.

Reading them so fast,
You’d think they’d vanish.

Big words, small words,
They want all words.

As if stuffing another word in,
Would make you any smarter.

No letters to hold back,
They want the whole sack.

Write while you can,
Before all letters are band.

By those letter hungry mongrels,
Who eat them for snack.

Letters to see,letters to think,
Letters to write, in permanent ink.

Letters, letters, letters,
That’s all we ever hear about.

Oh well I guess their a good thing,
Or you wouldn’t be reading this stupid thing.

stairing mirror

2007-12-06T17:29:00.000-08:00

I look into the mirror,
At this face I see.

None other then yours,
Stair back at me.

I feel you in me,
Even though we my be far apart.

As though a tiny seed,
Had been planted.

And the buds have started to part.

Emotion flows,
As anxiety grows.

Will I ever see you again?

Or will I always be,
Staring in the mirror

the room

2007-12-06T17:27:00.000-08:00

The room is empty,
But it’s still filled with memories.

The sweet sound of your voice.

The feeling of your gentle touch.

Still flows,
Threw me when I’m in this room.

What was once a loud room,
Full of voices is now dead with silence.

Why must it be this way?

Why must the thought of you,
Only be in haunting memories.

Of the things that were,
But never will be again.

The room is empty,
But your spirit lives on.

The room may be empty,
But the fun will never go away.

The room is empty,
But our love will never fade.

The room is empty,
But our love will always stay.

PFD

2007-12-06T17:26:00.000-08:00

The past.

A time that was but,
Never will be again.

You hope that you did something,
That was worthwhile in the end.

Fellowship.

Ahh, now there’s a word I like,
But one so hard to find the words to rhyme.

Fellowship is a good think,
With laughter and merriment.

A time to talk with others,
And try to bring someone to bed.

A time of dance, a time of song,
Boy this list could go on and on.

But this is enough don’t you think?
This isn’t the only thing we have to drink.

Depression.

Mourning and misery,
Were everything seems to go wrong.

Why couldn’t that girl,
have been the one?

Why not this, why not that?
God, I don’t give myself anything back.

PFD.

The Past Fellowship Depression,
The plague that spreads and kills.

PFD, is it in you?
If not it soon will.

insane

2007-12-06T17:24:00.000-08:00

Save me.

I’m going insane.

My mind is racing.

I can’t live,
I can’t breathe,
Unless you do this with me.

Take my hand,
Take me forever.

Breathe in,
Breathe out.

Put your hands up,
Put your hands down.

Turn around and do a dance,
And come and love me now.

My blood is like wine,
Your tongue is just divine.

Move in me and take me over,
I want you, need you, and can’t live without you.

I love you, you hate me,
We can’t live without each other so come let us be one.

Even though you may be the death of me.

I may be insane,
But at least it’s beater then being in pain.

Soul food

2007-12-06T17:22:00.000-08:00

Children squeal with delight,
As their meal comes into sight.

Food for the body,
Sex for the soul.

One can’t go without the other,
But at the moment my body has taken a deadly toll.

A hug can last and hour,
A kiss could scrape a day.

But over a year without feeling you,
Is more then I can take.

My soul is hungry,
Even though my body is fed.

It’s getting so bad,
I wish I was dead.

My heart is in misery,
I don’t know what to do.

I t seem that no matter how hard I try,
I can’t stop thinking of you.

You feed my soul,
In ever sense of the word.

More then a burger or steak,
Or a freshly cooked bird ever could.

All these thing are good too,
But there’s nothing in this world.

That compares.
With a little bit of you.

hidden secret

2007-12-06T17:21:00.000-08:00

My life is a bunch of secrets,
And only a few some people know.

The rest I keep to myself,
And never let them show.

People say I’m surrounded by a firewall,
A place where no one can see.

I guess it’s cause of all the things,
That’s happened to me.

I trusted my heart and life,
In others hands.

And they broke them apart,
It made me really sad as well as mad.

If I have a wall,
I don’t know.

But the truth is.

Some secrets,
I will never show.

And you will never know.

for Tiny

2007-12-06T17:20:00.001-08:00

So big and round,
Nearly two hundred pounds.

So cruel and mean,
But still so lean.

He’s pretty strong but not very smart,
And god, does it stink when he farts.

So fun to pick on,
Even though I’m the squirt.

I can punch him as hard as I want,
And it still won’t hurt.

Belly of iron,
Fists of clay.

That’s a weird mix,
Wouldn’t you say?

Anyhow all this to say,
I’ll miss you man.

And one day I come back,
And woop your ass.

Hey, hey
What can I say.

bored

2007-12-06T17:19:00.001-08:00

Waiting,
While listening to debating.

Tossing and turning,
It’s so boring, I’m snoring.

Images race through my head,
As I try and make time fly.

But still it drags on,
Almost till the brake of dawn.

I’m bored,
Please give me something to do.

I’m not doing anything,
So I’ll think of you.

I’m bored,
I feel like I’m going die.

I’m bored,
Bring me to life.

fallen star

2007-12-06T17:17:00.000-08:00

Like a falling star.

You’ve fallen far,
Far away from me.

You kept walking to the edge,
Despite my plea’s to stop.

And now you’ve fallen.

“I won’t go far” you said,
As you took another step closer.

You didn’t listen to me,
And now you’re a falling star.

In a world that you thought would bring you,
Happiness and joy.

Why did you turn your eyes,
From the truth?

You’re the star that has fallen,
But that could have been used for the light.

The time isn’t to late,
Turn back now.

The fallen star,
Isn’t the name for you.

Come back to the light,
And life that was made for you.

Take my hand,
I’m waiting for you.

My fallen star,
Fall no more.

My fallen star,
Let me take you home.

pushing the botton

2007-12-06T17:15:00.000-08:00

Pushing a button,
to turn it off.

Is a motion,
most people don't give much thought.

But pushing the button,
on you, my love,

is the hardest thing I've ever done.

There's a sadness in my voice,
a heaviness on my heart.

As my finger slowly presses down,
and suddenly, like a cut, your gone.

and my time with you,
no more.

Sleep will not come,
the pain for me is to great.

I pushed to button on you,
and now it's to late.

I can't take back,
what I've done.

My anger and sorrow grow,
more with time.

"It's a foolish thing" some people say,
"to shed a tear over something so lame".

But it's not,
when it's the person you love.

the one that’s as gentle as a dove.

Is gone forever,
and only left you her spirit.

I could have waited a little longer,
I didn't have it go right then.

But you gone,
and I'm left with nothing but a memories.

All because I listened to your plea,
and pushed the stupid button.

why?

2007-12-06T17:13:00.000-08:00

The question thats been on my mind for quite some time,
is why?

Why did you give in,
the the thoughts that others, had within?

You didn't have to do what you did, but you did,
and now I wonder why?

What you were doing,
you knew was wrong.

So why did you keep,
going on?

The pleasure might have been,
for a moment.

But now the anguish is more,
like mortal torment.

I'm glad you see what,
you did was wrong.

But still my question,
go's on.

Why?

Why did you let it go on?
Why did it take so long?

Why couldn't I have been the one,
to do wrong?

Why?

forgiven

2007-12-06T17:10:00.000-08:00

You said "I'm sorry",
for all the things you did.

I just wanted to say I forgive you,
there's no other words I can give.

There's no way I could be mad at you,
no matter how hard I could try.

I just can't get mad at you,
it would only make me cry.

I more than forgive you,
I just wish there was a way.

I could show you, your forgiven,
in a obvious way.

Well, I guess there's nothing more to say.

all I could has already been said,
and now it's all faded away.

I've forgotten the past,
and now look forward to the future.

I can't wait to see you again,
and kiss your royal fingers.

I love you babe,
now and forever.

Kiss of death

2007-12-06T17:09:00.000-08:00

The kiss that was nice at the moment,
Is now the kiss that ends all kisses.

The burning of my tongue,
And stinging of my throat.

Only tells me that my time,
Is no longer then the day I was born.

The kiss of death,
Seems so pleasing and appealing.

But is the death of so many,
Who fall to its trap.

The sugar coated red lip,
The sourer pleasure of the tongue.

Only leads to the burning pain,
That’s inside my mouth.

And the knife that’s now in my back.

The kiss of death.
The kiss that steals lives.

And gives nothing in return,
Except a life of torment and death.

Find me the one,
With the kiss of life.

To break the spell I have,
And bring me back to life.

bleached

2007-12-06T17:05:00.000-08:00

A black beauty.

Proud and strong,
One after my own heart.

Bleached with white,
While working it’s job.

Curse you, you fiend,
Of the night.

The one that leaves you stain in white.

Cover the bleach with black.

And let us fight back,
Turning all clothes black.

Night

2007-12-06T17:04:00.000-08:00

Darkness is all around,
I feel so lonely.

I curl up in a ball,
And wish you could hold me.

The night is my friend,
It’s not like I’m afraid of it.

I just wish I had you,
To enjoy it with.

One is fun,
But two is more homey.

I hug my pillow,
Close and tight.

And imagine you,
There beside me.

Then close my eyes
as the hours slowly drag by.

The night.

Rhyming rhyms

2007-12-06T17:02:00.000-08:00

Poems written on different pages,
But most meaning almost the same.

Each written at a different time,
But all with the same rhyme.

Rhymes that rhyme with the rhymes,
Of previous rhymes.

The circle goes on.

What sounds good on one line,
Can sound good another time.

Just written with a different rhyme.

A poets mind is a world of floating rhymes,
Each one important in their own time.

Rhymes that rhyme one day,
And again the next.

Rhymes you can never find the words or rhyme,
To write with.

Rhymes that rhyme,
But at other times.

Rhymes that rhyme,
With other rhyming rhymes.

Sex

2007-12-06T16:58:00.000-08:00

I wrote this one to the tune of, I think, a beastiboys song.

What every girl and boy wants is,
Sex.

And every parent’s worst fear is,
Sex.

That’s why it’s so much fun, cause it’s,
Sex.

All the girls and screaming,
Sex.

And all the boys are yelling,
Sex.

But all the parent’s are saying,
NO!!!

But what they don’t know,
They don’t know.

That’s why all the girls are squealing,
More.

And all the boys pants hit the,
Floor.

Cause all they really want is,
Sex.

And they’ll keep on having,
Sex.

Until the day they die its,
Sex.

And when they hit the sky its,
Sex.

And it will always be,
Sex.

Mother and Tutor

2007-12-06T16:52:00.000-08:00

Mush may be to daughter of satan,
But god does she know how to kiss.

She can make your body shudder,
With just one move of her lips.

To nice to be mean,
But boy can she be to those people she doesn’t like.

She’ll punch you on the double,
So you beater stay out of trouble.

Unless you want to run far from her sight.

Delightfully delicious,
And oh so nutritious.

But no one can say that,
but me.

My mother of evil,
My tutor or darkness.

Your child’s worst dreams,
For real.

Mine top cherish,
Yours to fear.

Oh, you poor little dears.

Bloody Tears

2007-12-06T16:49:00.000-08:00

A tear of blood,
for the child that was never born.

A tear of blood,
for the bird that could never sore.

A tear of blood,
for the crippled and lame.

A tear of blood for me,
for I'm the one insane.

And the one that will be dead,
with the pain of being without you.

A tear of blood,
for you, cause your to cool to be left out.

I cry tears of blood,
one for me and one for you.

Cause I have nothing else to do,
when I'm without you.

the closet

2007-12-06T16:48:00.000-08:00

A place where we can go and hide,
And do nothing for a time.

A place we can go and think,
And not worry about being seen.

A place to sit whenever we want,
Oh boy, don’t we feel smart.

A place we can,
Write, fight, or just stay out of sight.

A place we can have fun,
And try to make each other feel dumb.

A friend to me,
A friend for you.

There’s almost nothing we can’t do,
In our closet.

The Writer

2007-12-06T16:45:00.000-08:00

Dramatic but still so ecstatic.

The story of one’s mind,
Written in a poetic way.

Every morning,
A word so new.

Ever evening,
A note with a catchy tune.

A word to make up,
For the thousands to say.

But it has to be written,
In a rhythmic way.

Shaking hands that scribble each word,
While on his mind it still burns.

phrases erased and replaced,
By something new.

His thoughts without emotion or feeling,
Will never do.

He tries and retries,
Sometimes even late into the night.

Till at last he comes with,
The poem that is just right.

I want

2007-12-06T16:44:00.001-08:00

I want to feel,
Your arms around me.

I want to hear,
Your voice beside me.

I want to touch,
Your soft face.

I want to wipe,
All your tears away.

I want to hold,
You close in my arms.

I want to whisper,
How much I love you.

I want to be,
Always with you.

I want to love,
You every day of my life.

I want…,

You.

Paper Road

2007-12-06T16:42:00.000-08:00

I walk down the road.

All my hopes, dreams, and wishes,
making my way.

My thoughts and dreams,
Float swiftly by.

But of things that happened in the past,
Things that never came to pass.

I keep walking forward,
In the direction of a house.

A house made up of stories,
To make up for my lacks.

A house of things,
That I lost.

A house that was made,
Of the many be tossing nights I’ve crossed.

A house that’s held together,
By memories of you.

No nails or screws,
Not even glue.

The house was made,
To tell the story of my life.

The house that sits,
On this paper road

Black Wind

2007-12-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

The wind that lives in the ways.

The wind that longs for the taste of sweet blood,
That dances to the sound of screams.

The wind that cares not for the dead
Cause it is dead.

The souls of within cry and scream,
For the bodies on men.

The raw flesh that’s a treat the their dry tongues,
The sweet blood the wet their thoughts,
And a soul to add as one of their own.

Hide your face when the wind blows,
Run with all the strength that’s within you.

Find a way gate to leave that hole,
For that’s the way evil won’t harm you.

There is no shield that can protect you,
No sword to defend you.
There’s nothing that can stop it.

The wind begins to blow,
Run while you can before it finds you.

The black wind is coming,
Run before it’s to late.

Run.

The Orphan

2007-12-04T19:24:00.000-08:00

Thin and shabby,
His hair looks like a mat.

He sits in the corner all lonely,
He looks like one big splat.

He’s alone cause no one Wants to be with him,
I don’t blame them,Cause he can be one annoying guy,To be with.

He wouldn’t be so bad,
If he wasn’t such an ass.

But the last time we told him,
He just looked at us and laughed.

Oh well,
what more can we do?

If you want to be an orphan
Then good for you.

I can’t speak for the others,
but I’ll say this to you.

If you want, you can be an orphan,
But I wouldn’t know you.

Someday

2007-12-04T19:17:00.000-08:00

One day someday,
It all means the same.

Someday we’ll see each other again,
God, help it not to be far away.

One day could mean tomorrow,
Someday take forever.

But I can’t wait,
For that golden day.

Whether it be flying in the sky,
Or walking on the ground.

It won’t matter to me,
As long as it’s you and me.

Someday it’ll be a fun day,
Even though I hate that word,It still means the same.

Someday will be a good day,
When I’m holding you in my arms,
And we’ll never again part.

Wishmaster

2007-12-04T19:14:00.000-08:00

I am the man,
Who has wished many wishes.

You name them,
I’ve probably wished them.

I’ve wished from,
Love and beauty to hate and death.

There’s no wish that’s gotten away.

On the outside,
I’m nothing but a man.

But if you were to look within,
You’ll find where the wish master lives.

changed

2007-12-04T19:11:00.000-08:00

What happened to you?
You’re not the girl I remember.

You’ve chanced,
And it’s not for the better.

I remember the days,
We used to talk and laugh.

Why did it stay in the past?

I miss the old you,
I think I liked her better.

So if you ever see her again,
Tell her to give me a call.

Cause I miss her,
And want to keep being her friend.

Deserted Love

2007-12-04T19:06:00.000-08:00

Deserted love left helpless one the floor,
Discarded by the one who said, you they will always love.

Scattered and broken, covered with dust,
From how long ago, you don’t know.

Walking back threw the line of time,
To the day we first met.

And everything that has happened
from now till then.

Seeing all we’ve been threw,
And how they all turned out.

Looking frantically for clues,
To see if I had anything to do what just came about.

You left me without a warning,
Barely gave me a chance to say goodbye.

You just walked away with a,
“Hey, maybe I’ll see u again someday”.

Now you’re gone…..for how long I don’t know,
And about the same time you knew I was going to go.

I don’t know if I’ll see you again,
And if I do,
it will probably be when I’m old.

And god know how long without you,
I’ll be able to hold.

Terri

2007-12-04T19:04:00.000-08:00

Eyes of light sea blue,
That make me think of you.

Hair of summers golden sun,
Which brings a smile to every one.

Lips I want to kiss,
And forever be lost in this abyss.

Terri,
god made you just to cute.

Metle beauty..I was bored

2007-12-04T19:03:00.000-08:00

Movies that make you scream,
Music that makes you bleed.
Korn for the young,
Metalica for the old.
What a beautiful this metal is,
To me.

Mind wonder

2007-11-25T21:10:00.000-08:00

Let your mind wonder
back to days you found so much fonder.

a time when there was peace instead of war.

a time when love meant so much more.

to a place where the only thing to do
was sit in each others arms,

just me and you.

Deaths ring

2007-11-25T21:02:00.000-08:00

The viper’s sting is in my blood,
the vampire’s bite on my neck.

My soul mourns and my heart is crushed,
trampled underfoot by all those around me.

Oh let me die,

let me thrust the knife in my side;
let me fall from the highest mount.

Relies your hold on my life for I no longer want to live it,
let me be to my torment.

Let me give in and let death overwhelm me;
don’t hold me back any more for you only make things worse.

Just relies me please I want to die,
I can’t stand it any longer,

let me give my mind over to darkness,
let my soul go down to the grave,
let the evil within me brake free and dive to the pits of shadows,
only then can I be free.

Why must you linger?
Why must you torture me so?

It was for you tat I would have fought and died for.

Why must you stab me from behind?

I gave you my love, my soul and this is how you repay me?

Dam you, you little heathen.

why won’t you let me go?

Keep me any longer
and you’d wish that Pandora’s Box was reopened
and ever curse in the book bespoken.

Why must you keep your hold?

You little mongrel,
I was born for you, I lived for you,
but now I would rather die without you.

You repaid my love with sorrow and now I dread tomorrow.

Why do you still hold on?

Why won’t you let me go?

Death is all I’m wanting,
is that to much for the asking?

Haven’t I served you enough?

Now let the angels come and take me
to what reward could be waiting.

Let me go, I beg you please,
you only make thing harder and my passion for death stronger.

why must you torture me so?

What have I done to deserve this?

I’ll ask you one more time,
please heed my warning before it’s to late.

Let me go so death can take me to were my brothers are waiting.

Let me go

Closer

2007-11-25T20:59:00.000-08:00

Cheer up my friend,
it’s not the end.

The sun will shine again,
And things will turn out better then when they began.

This storm will pass away,
And then you’ll see the light of another day.

Worries and fears will soon be over.

When weir in each other arms,
Holding each other closer.

So far away but never to stay,
Closer we’ll be and forever will it be that way.

Mush

2007-11-25T20:57:00.000-08:00

Daughter of the sun.
Sister of the moon.

So sweet and kind,
But still so cruel.

Skin as bright as light,
Clothes as dark as night.

Lips or strawberry cream,
That make me soul scream.

Oh what a sexy thing Mush can be,
To me.

Make u shine

2007-11-25T20:53:00.000-08:00

I told you I’d make you famous,
Or at least I’d try.

So wipe those red, tear-stained eyes,
For I’m about to make u shine.

People will start looking at you,
With love instead of hate.

And for those that still think you’re a disgrace,

You can shove the finger in their face,
And yell “fuck you!”

You’ll walk over kings and queens,
Lords and ladies will bend their knee, to your every plea.

With you in the lead,
and me pulling the strings.

You’ll be the most popular girl,
This world has ever seen.

And those that get in your way,
Just punch them in the face and say,“back off!”

The world will soon remember your name,
Cause of all the power you’ll gain.

From the promise I made.

Witchcraft

2007-11-15T20:26:00.000-08:00

She sits in her room,
Thats all black.

The demons, you can see them,
Crawling on her back.

In her lap a book,
Of many spells.

But shhh,
Your not supposed to tell.

The cuts in her arm,
The result of this craft.

But still she wants more,
Always more.

For two yeas she went on,
With no one knowing a word.

This witchcraft of hers,
That I find really absurd.

Finally, one day she stopped,
Oh what a relieving thought.

But know the dragon fang,Is on her door.
The enemy won’t take it,Her saying no.

He tries threatening her with death,
But she doesn’t give a heck.

She’s got nothing to live for,
Or so she likes to say.

She’s finished, and that’s final.
God help it not to be just another of her recitals.

Help her not to go to witchcraft anymore.

Hell, help her to throw,
The stupid thing out the door.

It’s a risky game,
And she shouldn't’t be playing it.

Her name is on my heart.
That’s why I wrote this from the start.

I’m trying to help her see,
There is so much more to life,

Then those stupid things.
J.P.G

Scammbled Feelings

2007-11-15T20:23:00.000-08:00

Crushed,
Like stone turned to dust.

Shot in the head,
My world falls.

Blood so red,
You can taste it in your mouth.

When my soul is dead,
Remember, to sing and shout.
J.P.G

Undiscovered Spy

2007-11-15T20:02:00.000-08:00

Hello and goodbye,
I’m that undiscovered spy.

I’m not here to stay,
I’m just passing threw.

Finding out all I can,
From stupid fools like you.

I know the place of,
Every stone and mouse in the tower.

Every crack and leak,
You have in your shower.

This castle will soon be mine,
There’ll be no way,You could put up a fight.

I’m as swift as the wind,
And as crewel as the night.

I’ll kill every man, woman, and child,
There is in sight.

Why do you think,
I’m hated with so much spit.

I’m the thief in the night,
Yes, the one that stole his wife.

I’m the undiscovered spy,

That’s here to take your life.
I go and I come as I please.

Cause I hate the light,
So I stay out of sight and attack at night.

And anyone that does see me,
Never lives to see another day,

Cause I come and snatch their soul away.

I’m the undiscovered spy,
What more can I say.

I’m here one day and gone the next,
I just love this game I play

J.P.G

Loves Beauty

2007-11-15T19:57:00.000-08:00

My love,
your so beautiful.

Like an angel,
That’s been sent for me.
I think of you,and I feel in love.

I hold you,
and I see God's dove.

Your my beacon on light,
in this world of night.

I want to grab you,
and kiss you and always be with you.

Cause I love you,
I can't lie.I can't live without you.

Please my love,
be mine
J.P.G

Gone

2007-11-15T19:52:00.000-08:00

I can feel it,
It’s leaving me.
It’s going away,
And I don’t know when it’ll be back.
This is it’s poem farewell,I
t’s poem goodbye.
The gift has come,
And know it must go on.
Following its master,
With her not knowing.

She left,
And now it’s going too.
I can feel it leaving,
The gifts draining away.
It’s leaving,
In fact it’s almost gone.
It just wanted to leave,T
his poem to say goodbye.
And now it’s gone
J.P.G

warning

2007-11-15T19:36:00.000-08:00

Tears lost,
By broken hate.
Blood mixed with sorrow,
The warning.
Of a poisonous death.
J.P.G

Used + Abused

2007-11-15T19:13:00.000-08:00

A puppet.
That’s all I’ve ever been to you.

A tool.
For you to use and abuse.

Why did I let myself,Be used?
Someone to kiss your butt,And get u stuff.

That’s all I’ve ever been
A servant, a slave,Who was blinded to want to obey.

But I wont be used
,No, not any more.

Go ahead, be a whore,
But I refuse to be used by you .

Go find some other idiot,
To do your work.

But don’t count on me to do it for u,
Not anymore.

J.P.G

Fire + Ice

2007-11-15T19:04:00.000-08:00

My feelings for you
Are strange

Like the waves of the ocean
They always change

One day I love you
The next I don’t

I feel I can’t live without you
But then I want to be alone

Sometimes it’s fire
Other times its ice

It hurts me so bad
But also feels so nice

Like a bed of roses
With a dagger in my back

I’d leave you for dead
But then run back

I can’t make-up my mind
How I feel about you

So I’ll leave it at
I love and hate you.

J.P.G

black crows

2007-11-15T17:58:00.000-08:00

One black crow

Sitting on a branch
Across the bay

Two black crows

Watching the field
All day

Three black crows

Me-crow
I don’t know what else to say

Four black crows

Loco
People call me psycho

Five, six black crows

They insist
they want to stay

Seven, eight black crows
Here comes a lone crow

nine, ten black crows
I’m deadThey fly in to devour their prey

J.P.G

The Eye

2007-11-15T17:52:00.000-08:00

Poetry is an eye
The door to another’s world

Seeing the past + feelings
Without speaking to them a word

The door that hides
So many surprises

The eyes that don’t hold back
From those tear-stained eye-lids

Outside she looks fine
But her poetry never lies

Anger built up
Till their dead without sound

Tears swell up
Their pouring on the ground

The eyes that tell what they heard
But from her hand that wrote every word

Shut the eye
Close the door

Your not worthy
To see anymore

Of the girl that lives
Within my hearts door

J.P.G

Mistress

2007-11-15T14:54:00.000-08:00

Living in hell awaiting the day
She comes + fucks your sorrows away.

Mistress of madness, toil, + grief
A angel of love, beauty, + sexuality

Lost in her would with nothing but care
Praying she’ll lick you out of disappear

Her only wish it to please you
They only want to rape + beat you

Stressed + disappeared
You don’t know what to do

Till she comes
+ sexually eases you

She’ll fight away you clouded nights
+ take you away to her bed…

.… of sexual delight
J.P.G

Death

2007-11-15T14:09:00.000-08:00

What a beauty what a blessing

the passing of ones soul
to a differen't world.

the glory without pain will come
as the dawn brings up the sun.

the light at the end will soon be brighter
and the feeling in my soul be lighter.

welcome life, welcome death
welcome the life after death.

but for now I'll welcome death,
for my life is but a mess.

pain and sorrow will soon pass away
when death comes to take me away.

oh how long do I have to wait,
for my friend,death, to pass my way?

J.P.G

picked away

2007-11-15T14:03:00.000-08:00

people ask me how I feel
and I smile and tell them I'm fine

and they believe me and think I'm for real

but how can I expres how I feel inside
when I feel like a stone ageanst the ocean's tide

my mind crumbles and falls
just like my world around me

there's nothing left inside
but the pain and sorrow that surounds me.

piece by piece I'm being picked away
like chickens not knowing there's a fox in their cage.

as the night, slowly scraps away the sun
so does pain scrap away the man I was to become.
J.P.G

A place to hide

2007-11-15T13:36:00.000-08:00

The "Jack" inside has run to hide
and my serious side returns to play

the side that cries 'I don't care if I live or die
cause I'm already dead inside anyway.

with nowhere to hide and this pain inside
I go with the flow as we walk on our way

my foolish side was here for a time
but seriousness was here to stay.

We have nowhere to hide
but we don't care if we live or if we die

weir already dead inside anyway.

You were always worried something was wrong
when my serious side came my way

and you were right all along
but your love was to strong, and kept it at bay.

But now your gone
so it cooly comes along to say

'I knew you were wrong
thow u dinied it all along

but I knew you'd see the error of your ways
so come along, take my hand, and let us go and play.'

But I want to be free
from this pain inside me

I need a place to hide
where seriousness seldoms finds

and there I want to stay.

Give me your love, the touch from above
to keep it again at bay

your love is the thing
that can heal all my stings

and there I long to say
so,please,give you love my way....again.
J.P.G

Picture World

2007-11-15T13:29:00.000-08:00

It's amazing what a picture can do
you look at it + it's almost like it's looking through you.

In a time that's no longer now, but before
a person that's not there, but you feel them + know there's more.

My picture world
everywhere I look I see another face looking at me.

A face of a person that's not there or are they,
just unseen by the eyes of me?

In a drawer, on the door, pinned on the wall heck
I even have one on a pillow case.

my head loves to answer that ones call.

A picture world, my picture world
it's everyone that means something to me.

the thought I often stop + ponder is
does anyone have a picture world that has me?
J.P.G

I don't have a name for this one

2007-11-15T13:19:00.000-08:00

A smile on everyone’s faces but mine
I just never seem to find the time.

They all have something exciting, something new
All I have it memories of the past, places and you.

Tears pour inside but never come to show
What point is there in crying, no one can ever know.

They’ll never get what there is about me
Causes neither can I… or you.

Just a strange person in this cage of a world
Wincing as the strings of my heart get pulled.

Crawling trying to find a place to hide,
Feeling, scared, confused, and empty inside.

Clawing my face, trying to scrape out the memories
Of the things I used to do, they only make me think of you.

I build my power high,
Jump off and pretend I can fly. when I don’t have wings to try.

Trusting you that you can pull through
But can I trust myself to pull through with you.

Someone had to stay back to hold the evil at bay
If it was a choice between me and you, you know what I’d say.

You run I’ll stay and die so you can get away
I already feel dead anyway.

You just know that I love you
Come what way, and past my dieing day.

Now run away and go somewhere safe
You go I stay, I’ll follow you and be with you someday.
J.P.G

Memory of you

2007-11-15T13:12:00.000-08:00

The tears that fell
will fall again

the battle that was over
will again begin.

the sword that was buried
will soon rise.

men will scream, shout,
moan and die.

love found
but lost forever more.

the dragons fang is carved
deap on the door.

rain pours down bitter
burning the hearts and souls of men.

women will cry
weep and moarn.

fires blazede
stroying whats new.

people stand + watch
they don't know what to do.

the seed that was planted long ago
will rise and spring a new.

power, life
a reason to be with you.

this I say, and be it true
cause of my loving memory of you.`
J.P.G